Here is the previous post in English : ) Sorry it took so long but there has been some difficulties with the WiFi while being on holiday!
I can not wait to get back into my workout routine. Now it’s been about five weeks since my last gym session and I need to wait a little more before I start again. Being sick is so annoying, but now the antibiotics have worked. Just some extra time to recover so I won’t get any nasty side effects.
Even tho I’m super excited about my upcoming workouts there are times when I can get a little demotivated when it comes to hitting the gym. Especially when I’m satisfied with myself or actually specifically with my figure. I’m not sure how the saying goes in English but a rough translation is “Progress ends where satisfaction starts”. Smart, and on point. That’s why I decided to write about my transformation. To remind myself of what I have already accomplished and that change and progress are possible if you want them and believe in them. I’m also extremely happy if even one person reading this gets motivated to do something to reach their goals and starts to believe in oneself more. I can say that I’ve been very motivated by other people since I started my project.
Now to the transformation story: I weighed at 84kg at my highest and I’m 170cm tall, therefore my BMI was about 29,1. It means “overweight”, next word in the paragraph is “obese”. Quite shocking because I was only in my early twenties. I’m not saying that those numbers are okay at any age... I wasn’t exercising, I was out partying and drinking up to three times a week, eating rubbish and too big portions and just laying on the sofa watching telly. It was fun then, but what came out of all that? Weight gain, self loath, depression, feeling inferior etc. Basic feelings for a person, who is constantly feeling unhappy with oneself, and for a reason. I wasn’t really doing anything that would develop me or take me forward in life.
At this point I had been with my boyfriend Matti for two years and I wasn’t only feeling bad for myself but for him as well. I couldn’t possibly be fun to hang around with because I was feeling quite fed up most of the time. Matti has been working out since a teenager and was cheering me to start too. First we went for walks together and soon started jogging. He has said afterwards that he was shocked about how poor shape I was in back then. My feet went numb after jogging for under 100m. I have to admit that I burst into tears after jogging around the little island of Mustikkamaa for the first time! It was such an important triumph for me. I showed myself that if I want to do something, I can.
I also joined a gym in 2009. I started attending the group exercise classes at LadyLine Herttoniemi in Helsinki. I watched what I ate, exercised and went jogging with Matti. I dropped about 10kg doing that. My confidence rose higher and it was so nice in the summer to not think about my wobbly bits even tho I still had some. I was feeling great and content. I also ran the HelsinkiCityRun in May 2011, and I can tell you that the last 10km was all about will power. My weight stayed around 73kg for about two years because I was mainly happy with my appearance. So I kept up my exercising and also added the gym into my routine. We went together with Matti because I really needed some mental support so that I would be able to go to the gym : D Working out with weights is the key in molding your body under all the fat tissue. I lost about 5kg of off my weight and gained some muscle.
Then came that time again when I wanted to lose some more weight because I still wasn’t as fit as I wanted to be. I had already gotten so far but I just wasn’t getting the motivation that was needed to shift the last kilos until I saw an advert on TV in January 2012 for FitFarm’s SuperDiet which is a Finnish online diet and training guide. I had also heard one of my friends getting good results with the program. It was two weeks till the program would start and I thought that I probably should join in on the fun. I just might get some results! And so I immediately hopped in front of the computer, filled the application and paid 99€ to get access to all the information and Q&A forums. And it really did pay off! I lost about 5kg during those 6 weeks of The SuperDiet. The group of people connecting online and the coaches gave me such a motivation and the results also helped me to keep on going. Our Facebook group is still active and we are discussing about exercising, eating etc. daily : ) I have been wondering what was the thing with this program that got me the results. Because I did have all the know-how before, there had to be something different. I realized that it was the fact that I believed it when the coaches said that “…by following these guidelines you will lose weight and tone up your body. Period.” I believed that when I do what I’m supposed to do in order to get results, I will get them even tho not much happened within the couple first weeks. The human body is like a thermostat that tries to stay in the current weight before it actually starts to shed any weight. In other words I believed in what I’m doing is going to give me the results I want. Because I believed in my doings, I didn’t give up after the first couple of weeks but kept on going. I can tell you from my own experiences that disbelief in oneself is more often behind an unsuccessful weight loss rather than not wanting enough to lose the weight.
In the beginning of the summer 2012 my weight was about 65-66kg and it was sooooo cool! I had been waiting for that summer for years, when I would be happy to hit the beach in my bikini and I would not be thinking about my chubby legs when wearing a summer dress etc. Those negative feelings were so depressing. At this point my points of interest and views on many things had changed. I wasn’t that into partying anymore, at least not as often as I used to. I didn’t feel like eating un-nutritious foods or those crazy sized portions. In the fall of 2012 I joined together with one of my friends in another online diet and exercise program by FitFarm called The Bikini Challenge. It helped me to lose few kilos more and more importantly to tone my body. Again I got more information about diet, training, supplements etc. We also met up with all the coaches and people in the Challenge for a day filled with training and talking about nutrition and exercise. That was a really good day and experience.
I am aware of the downfalls of these online coaching things. They can never be as personal as a program and diet made by an actual personal trainer is. They are good for some people and bad for other. For me these programs were a perfect match: I learned to control my portion sizes, I learned a lot about nutrition and training etc. Most importantly I got the motivation, support and belief in myself that I needed. There were so many winners in that group of ours! I also managed to keep up with the right eating and training habits after both programs ended and therefore didn’t gain back the weight.
You can shead excess weight with other methods than joining an online program, but for me they worked as motivators and as a little kick in the butt after starting the project by myself. In a way I was responsible to someone else in addition to myself for making progress, even tho I really wasn’t. But that is usually the reason behind hiring an actual personal trainer. I was left with more discipline, which is important when going through a lifestyle change.
Now it’s been about a year and half since the last online program and I don’t feel the need to do those again. I would like to have my own PT and I need to think about that. But you also learn by reading, asking, taking notes by other people who know what they are doing and learn and develop by doing it yourself. You also learn to read and know your body by “using” it. These days my hobbies include mainly training at the gym. I have also been going to yoga classes some time now and I’m totally in love with it! It’s my body maintenance as I have been too ignorant towards it in the past. I don’t really weigh myself anymore because those numbers are not that important when there’s not actual fat to lose. Measure tape and clothes work better now for my body. But now writing this I became interested to find out my current weight so I hopped on the scale and it showed 63kg. It means that I have lost about 21kg, yes! After I get to go to the gym the weight will go higher because the muscles fill up with fluid but that’s okay! : ) I still eat the same healthy “normal” food as I did when losing weight, I just eat more calories. I try to eat 5-6 times a day and include carbs, fats and protein into every meal. I drink lots of water and I’m a sucker for green tea, I drink alcohol rarely. I try to eat as clean as I can, in other words I prepare all my foods myself. I do sometimes drink Pepsi Max, eat an occasional protein bar, those are the inpurities of my daily diet. Usually I feast on some healthy snacks like dates or peanut butter-banana-combo (I could live only on that) etc. I can’t remember when was the last time I bought a liter of ice-cream which used to be my weekly (or more often..) treat. That’s how the taste puds and routines change and develope : D But just to be clear I have to say that I definitely do not deprive myself the “old friends” of mine, they just aren’t as wanted as they used to be every day.
This turned out to be quite a long post, thank you for reading it : )
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